Happy Holiday!!

Yeah!!! From this moment, start my 2 weeks holiday.

Not that very super excited but just feel good to be able to have some time really relax myself from working mode.

Anyway, to those who will be having holiday also, Happy Holiday and enjoy your holiday.

To all, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!!

Company shut down eve

It is so quiet in my office now. I can clearly hear what everyone talking (phone or talking to colleagues) although they are sitting few tables from me.

Around me, in my section of abt 30 tables, there are only less than 5 people come to office. The colleague who sitting next to me told me that this is shut down eve syndrom. Haha...

Now, no mood to really do work. Feel like counting down to go back home. It's 940am now, which mean i still have 7 hrs and 50 minutes more to end my last day work of 2008. I am waiting...

Poll #4: which day of the week do you like most?

Thanks for my supporters who placed their votes in my poll #4. Sorry to all of you as this was not up for quite some time.

When I post this poll, I actually ask myself the question. Which day of the week do I like most? As I like to do nothing at home or do something with less usage of my mind, I like off day (Saturday and Sunday) the most. hehe....

Let's see. Most of the people like Saturday the most. Quite understandable as for most of the people(working or studying) including myself, our off days per week are on Saturday and Sunday. Thus, one can do whatever you want in Saturday and not to worry about any work or study on the next day. I am in this group. ;p;p

For those who like Sunday the most, I am not very sure are these people work 6 days per week. Or maybe they have very meaningful Sunday, or could it be Sunday is the only day of the week that they can do something special(like meet with someone they admire or blah blah blah... hehehe)?

As for Friday, I guess I know who vote this day. If my guess is correct, the reason he chose Friday is similar to why most people chose Saturday as his work day is Sunday to Thursday. Am I right?

The way I see the results is something from my personal view. I guess most people will prefer off/free/no work/no study day, at least I am. Thus, the only vote which I can't think of any reason is the vote for Tuesday. Anyone can guess of any reason? Well, some people may like a particular day (although not an off day) for some particular reason like they will do some particular thing or join particular an event or meet a particular person on that particular day.

I guess my life is just too dull that make me like off day the most or maybe I placed rest (mentally and physically) as my first priority in this routine life.

SCSM 2008 Finishing Line

My every moment at the finishing line... ;p

Start from my small little head behind the guy in yellow T.

Searching SCSM 2008 result

What am I doing now?? I am suppose to complete some of my job related task now.

But, I am stilll lazy to start working on it.

Guess what, I am searching for Kennysia's full marathon result in Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2008. What am I really doing? Sigh. Searching for someone's result yet I do not even know who this guy is. (except, I have read some of his blog as he is too famous as a blogger)

Completed 21.1km in 2:29:31 (chip time)

December 7, 2008, Sunday morning was a beautiful morning. (like what the DJ kept mentioning.)

About 12K runners gathering at esplanade waiting for the flag off to start their 21.1km journey, and I am one of them.

With the attire ready, warm up ready, MP3 ready, my journey started at 6:30:52 (gun start time is 6:30:28).

Back track a bit, although I was ready with all the attire, warm up and MP3, I was not mentally ready for the run. This is not my first half marathon. My first and second half marathon was the Penang Bridge Run when I was still in JSHS. For those two run, I was consistently training before the run. However, I was not running/jogging/training/exercising for more than 2 months (at least) before yesterday. I kept thinking of reasons/excuses to not to leave my bed for the 21.1km yesterday morning. Sigh. I must be crazy the moment I registered myself in this marathon.

Back to the run, even though I am not well prepared, I forced myself to start running, continue to run and complete it. It was just a waste to pay S$40++ just for the adidas singlet. Also, I think the DJ said something which is correct, it's the courage to start the run more important. (something like that. hehehe)

Anyway, I am glad that I started the run. I am also glad that I remember to bring my MP3 with me this time. 21.1km is just way too long. Remember that my colleague said last year that it was pretty boring to run 42.195km. I was not quite get her last year. However, I am truely understand what she meant with that after the run yesterday. I need to reconsider my intention to take part in full marathon next year.

After 2h 29m 31s, finally I reached the finishing point. hehe... not too bad result. But still, there are rooms for improvement. You can view my result here or here. But please do not compare me to the champion who completed in 1:17:42, ok?!

For the 42.195km finisher t-shirt, I'll consider to take part in full marathon next year or maybe a few more years later. Anyone wanna take part together?

Pre-Braces day 7

I got my 2 wisdom teeth out yesterday morning. The appointment was set at 830am.

I was quite worry about the extraction. I fear of the pain after extraction. I fear of the feeling when I open my mouth for very long time and seeing the dentist put one after another tools in my mouth. I fear of the possibility that my tooth will be fractured inside during the normal extraction and need to walk to the next level for surgical extraction.

The whole process from the moment I see the dentist till I went out from the clinic is less than 20 minutes. The first 10 minutes, I asked her something. (ya, my Dr is a she. ask her before extraction just in case my mouth too swelling to talk.) The last 5 minutes is to do the payment. The 5 minutes in between include the time she injected the 麻醉药 to the area around the teeth to be extracted, the time she did her own stuff and preparation while waiting for the 麻醉药 to get effect, some time for... Anyway, what I trying to say is the time she extracted both of my teeth is like maybe less than 1 minute only. In short, she was very fast.

Emm.. a bit late now, 11sth pm now... Let me continue this post tomorrow. By the way, I will be meeting the Indian Dr tomorrow. He will help me put the metal on my lower teeth tomorrow. That will start my first day of brace day. Let's see how it go tomorrow. ;)

Pre-braces day 4

It is day 4 since the Indian Dr put the 2 elastic band in my mouth. It was very uncomfortable but I started to get used to it. (high adaptability ;p)

It is just don't feel good when I eat something which need to chew a lot. eg, meat, bread (some bread need to chew a lot) and etc. Anyway, I try my best to avoid those food. ;p

I received a SMS this morning. It was a appointment reminder from NDC (National Dental Centre). The reminder is to remind me on my appointment this Wednesday for the wisdom teeth extraction.

In fact, I wanted to reply them and tell them that I have not forgotten about this appointment ever since the moment I made this appointment.

Due to the way my wisdom teeth grow, the dentists (again there are many dentist viewing my case wherever I go) were telling me that it is still possible that they can perform normal extraction to extract my wisdom teeth. Only if the tooth got fracture inside during the extraction, they will send me to the surgical extraction.

My teeth looks scary, but the treatment to correct it sound more scary. Sigh...

May god bless me. Let them extract both the teeth smoothly and without leaving so much pain.

Pre-Braces day.

For your info, you will see my teeth in dental braces very soon. (iron teeth ;p) Thus, I think it would be good to start taking down how I feel during this braces days.

Since November last year, I started to go to NUH dental clinic (Clinic 2) for some dental check up. He is an undergrad dentist who going to grad very soon and have me as a patient for his FYP (final year project). I believe he has grad to become a dentist by now already.

During his check up (about 3 times), he took a few x-ray of my teeth. Front view, side view, inside view and etc. Can't imagine how much cell of my head/brain died during that period. ;p No wonder I found myself so forgetful since then. ;p (Still not forget to blame on other for my forgetfulness).

I saw my x-ray and have it with me now (need to loan it for wisdom teeth extraction). It looks damn scary. Dunno how to describe it. But you might be able to imagine it if you see my teeth. Just super very not align. Anyway, this is one of the reason I go for the Orthodontics treatment.

He also did a mold of both my upper and lower teeth. What I can remember from this is the moment he put the "mold mixture" into my mouth. The feeling is just so irritating and uncomfortable. It's like putting some mud inside the mouth (never try putting mud inside my mouth but this is what I think it would be the same feeling).

After the 3 appointments with this undergrad dentist, he started putting my name in the queue. Since then, I was just waiting for calls from someone who I do not know till few weeks ago.

He is an Indian postgrad dentist. During my first appointment with him, he asked me to have another 2 x-ray and did the mold of my teeth again. I don't like that mud in mouth feeling. Yet, due to my abnormal teeth + his skill, I need to have that mixture into my mouth 3 times to make upper and lower teeth mold with 1 time failure. Sigh...

From my first appointment with him, I realised that I have improper bite. Because of some measurement needed, he asked me to bite as per normal. I followed what he said but he asked me to bite again. He asked me, "Is this how you bite?". I said, "ya". He then holded my lower jaw and push them backward. He then said, "This is how you bite rite? When I ask you to bite next time, bite like this. Bite at the back."

Yesterday was the 2nd appointment with him. His professor and him were discussing about how to proceed for my case. As an outsider, I can see that his professor is a very experience and expert orthodontic dentist. When she came to my Indian Dr, a few of the other dentists came near us and stood there listen to what she said. They were whispering to each others and agreeing what she said. I had a feeling like I wasthe guineapig inside an aquarium under some kind of experiment and observation. One of them even asked me to show her how I bite. She said, "Bite. Bite at the back." Same bite requested.

After his prof has gone, he told me softly that his prof is an expert in this field. That's the reason he chose her to take care of my case as my case is a bit complicated and like what he said not that straight forward.

Ya, I myself agree that my case is a bit complicated. He explained to me what are some of the options I can consider like what I heard from the discussion between his prof and him. I started to do some research on the option he gave. Anyway, that would be a decision to be made not now but in few months time.

He put elastic band between my lower wisdom tooth and the tooth next to it. He put another elastic band at the other side also. That started my pre-braces treatment.

How I feel? I started to fear of the whole treatment. It's really uncomfortable to have something inside my mouth even though the band is just much much much smaller than 5 cents coin. Do not know how to describe the feeling.

This is just the 2nd day of the pre-braces day. He told me that he will start with putting the metal on my lower teeth next week. The upper side will only start few months later. The whole treatment should be around 2 years like that. Let's see how this diary will become in these 2 years time.

Super tired...

Just realised that I have only 1 post in July. I must write something. I must not disappoint my readers. ;p;p (sorry that I know I already did)

Anyway, just a recent update of myself.

I am SUPER TIRED.....

It's Monday again...

Sleepy... tired... It's Monday morning again.

I wonder since when, Saturday and Sunday like a bit too short for a good rest. In fact, most of my Saturday and Sunday are not for rest. They are pack with lots of activities.

Sometimes, I sleep till noon during the weekend before my activities start but still felt tired on Monday. To some people, this is more than enough rest. One of them would be the me in 7 years ago. But that has became history.

Sometimes I would think, is it because I am getting older that I need more rest? Or, is it because that I think I am older and I deserve more rest?

Perhaps, maybe I am too lazy and lack of exercise. Think this should be the reason.

The 101th post

Just realised that this is the 101th post of my blog.

You might start calculating the total number of the archive post and found that "hey, ai mei... where got 101 post?"
Haha.. You are right. There are less than 100 posts in the archive.

Since I started this blog, I used to think of any topics to write when I have time. Such as in the bus/train or sometime during working hour. oppps... shhh.. Keep it low. Don't let my boss know. ;p
However, due to my laziness, all the topics can end up in 3 different way.
1. remain in my brain. This happen most of the time due to the laziness.
2. write half way and save as draft without publish in the blog. Sound stupid to do so, but still I will stop half way.
3. published in my blog and read by all of you. This is the best ending if and only if I have the mood to finish the whole blog. ;p;p

Haha.. Anyway, congratulation to my blog for the 101th post I have.
Since this is the 101th post, let's me blow the candle and make a wish.
. . .
lOl
Huhhh.....
lOl
Hope that.... (ppl said wish won't come true if we say it out.)

Lastly, thanks to all my royal readers... If you have any suggestions or feedback on my blogs, welcome to do so. Thank you very much. ;)

The Donkey

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well.
The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do.
Finally, he decided the animal was old,
and the well needed to be covered up anyway;
it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him.
They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well.

At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly.
Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.
A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well.
He was astonished at what he saw.

With each shovel of dirt that hit his back,
the donkey was doing something amazing.
He would shake it off and take a step up.
As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal,
he would shake it off and take a step up.

Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL :
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt.
The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up.
Each of our troubles is a steppingstone.
We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up!
Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less from people but more from God.

Monday Blue

It's Monday again.
It's another month after the last month meeting.
It's another tired day after yesterday.

Yes, it is true that I am very tired recently.
Particially due to unable to sleep well these few weeks.
Also, might be due to a bit over usage of my brain.

Every now and then, I can think of a lot of topic to post in my blog.
However, the moment I sit in front of my laptop, my brain just close the door from me.
Perhaps, the moment I sit in front of my laptop is getting lesser and lesser.

Is all these because of Monday Blue?
Will I have this feeling if today is Friday?

God knows.... ;P

人生

我们一出世，就被教导做个好孩子
拼命的读书，好了读完书了。大学也毕业了。
拼命的做工，赚多多的钱。。。
拼命的存钱，买房子，车子，保险
不小心找到了老婆，好了，结婚了，钱也用完了
再拼命的做工，好了30岁了，开始瓶颈。。。
再拼命的读PARTTIME，好了，学位高了。。。
拼命的抚育孩子，好了，孩子读书了。。。
拼命的灌输孩子要努力读书。。。。
自己拼命的做工。。。学位高了，压力也高了。。。
回到家，妻子照顾孩子，不得空理你。。
孩子忙着读书，不得空理你。。
月头，样样都是钱。
孩子和你拿钱。
妻子和你拿钱
房子和你拿钱
保险和你拿钱
车子和你拿钱
过年了，更加多钱
除了以上，
母亲和你拿钱
红包和你拿钱
旅行和你拿钱
NIKE，LEVI，PRADA，GUCCI，REEBOK，PADINI。。。和你拿钱
海外天也可能和你拿钱
40岁，男人危机。。。
拼命的工作，保住职位。。。
成了大家眼中的势利同事。。。
开始害怕失去工作，开始留意年轻同事。。。
想读书，钱，没有了，想换工，薪金高，岁数大，难讨新工
想尽办法，还是不能爬上经理职位，还被一个年轻人上了位。。
孩子开始读中学了，和你拿更多的钱。
父亲节，拿你给的钱，买了你没有用的东西。。。。
房子还是和你要钱
车子旧了，开始不听话了。。。还是要给钱
妻子也是一样和你拿钱，旦绝对没有收条给你看。夫妻要信任
好不容易熬过50了，要退休了，无风无浪。。。虽然压力大，新上司意见多多，不要紧。我顶！
就要拿公积金咯！但是孩子要出国读书--« 200千！
好了，公积金拿完出来了，一大半给了孩子，剩下的给了妻子
还是回到零。。。退休了，不用做？？？不能
几十年没有呆在家，忽然和妻子相处。。。
妻子看不顺眼丈夫无所事事，命令丈夫开始学做家事，！
扫地，抹地，剪草，洗车，样样都要做。。。
好了，房子供完了。。。车子也没有什么驾了。。。
开始觉得人生很无奈，自己从一个提款机，最后变成了一个佣人。
孩子出国回来了，拍了一些照片。。。开始找工了。。。
毕业=失业 ， 工难找，最后找到一份只可以养活自己的工作。还是要住在家里。。。吃，交通。去的薪金的一大半。。所以只是意思意思的给RM100给父母做伙食费。。。
3年过去了，孩子好不容易累计的工作经验，薪金高了。。。但是却开始要买辆汽车代步。。。母亲帮助+自己储蓄，给了头期。。。有了汽车，费用也多了。。还是意思意思给RM200作伙食费
好不容易的工作开始稳定了，但是却认识了一个女朋友。。。开始了人生计划。。。要买房子了。。。
由于车子+女朋友费用太大，还是不能给伙食费太多，而且女朋友说3年计划，全部钱要储蓄。。。
2年后，终于买了房子，买了房子，开始要结婚了。。。
我终于有用途了，被叫去提亲。。什么都不可以多说，全部老婆讲。自己讲些客套话就行了。。。
摆酒，婚礼，旅行。。。用了一大笔+母亲储蓄+ 我剩下的公积金
我还是回归零，。。。继续的剪草，扫地，做家务。。。
结婚了后，孩子很少会来了，忙着自己的家庭。。。偶尔假日才回来看看父母。。。每个月意思意思的给RM200 。孩子自己也困难了。要维持自己的家庭
好了，30年前的计划希望能够开始，旅行！！
大事不妙，媳妇怀孕了，生了个孩子。。。母亲代抚养，因为媳妇孩子都做工
本来平静的退休生活又再次起了涟漪。。。每天就要照顾孙子，晚上他哭我就跟着醒，开始学习新的技术，喂奶，包尿片，唱歌，拍手掌。。。
孩子每个月意思意思的给多RM300，当着是孙子的伙食费 。。。
照顾了5年后，孙子大了，孩子抱回去了，一切回归平静。忽然想起30年前的约定，决定和妻子去旅行。。。。
还是去不成了，妻子年级大了，病痛也多了。。。自己的腰骨也常闹别扭。。。医生说要多休息。。。孩子已经抱回孙子，每个月意思意思的给回RM300 伙食费
惟有呆在家里看电视。。。。一天早上，妻子看见为什么老头没有起来扫地。。。想去房里骂我，但我已经回到天国去了。。。
孩子为我做了后事。。。
最后我成了一张照片。
人生就是如此讽刺。。。呵呵

寬恕人的過失，便是自己的榮耀

有一個小學老師在偏遠的鄉里教書，
這天，他來到自己班上的教室，
問班上的小朋友：「你們大家有沒有討厭的人啊」
小朋友們想了想，有的未作聲，有的則猛力地點點頭。

老師接著便發給每人一個袋子，說：
「我們來玩一個遊戲。現在大家想想看，過去這一 週，
曾有那些人得罪過你他到底做了怎麼樣可惡的事,想到後，
就利用放學時間到河邊去找一塊石頭，
把他的名字給用小紙條貼在石頭上,
如果他實在很過份，你就找一塊大一點的石頭，
如果他的錯是小錯，你就找一塊小一點的石頭。
每天把戰利品用袋子裝到學校來給老師看哦！」

學生們感到非常有趣且新鮮，
放學後，每個人都搶著到河邊去找石頭。

第二天一早，
大家都把裝著從河邊撿來的鵝卵石的袋子帶到學校來，
興高采烈地討論著。

一天過去了，兩天過去了，三天過去了….. ，
有的人的袋子越裝越大，幾乎成了負擔。

終於，
有人提出了抗議「老師，好累喔」老師笑了笑沒說話，
立刻又有人接著喊：
「對啊每天背著這些石頭來上課， 好累喔 」

這時，老師終於開口了，
她笑著說：「那就放下這些代表著別人過犯的石頭吧」

孩子們有些訝異，

老師又接著講：
「學習寬恕別人的過犯 ，
不要把它當寶一樣的記在心上，扛在肩上，
時間久了，任誰也受不了…」

這個星期，這班的同學上到了人生中極寶貴的一課。
袋裡裝入越多、越大的「石頭」，
心中存留越多、越深的仇恨，
所造成的負擔就越重。

假如你有寫上我名字的石頭
你應當知道該怎樣做了吧！

我很喜歡一句名諺：
「寬恕人的過失，便是自己的榮耀。」
懂得「放下」，何等自在。

請不吝分享，或許今天正有人需要它！

相愛容易相處難，婚姻與戀愛最大的不同，
就是「戀愛看的是對方的優點」，
而「婚姻卻是要包容對方的缺點」。

Made with ... 緣份是找到包容你的人
用心過好每一天．相信每天都是美好的一天 ；

好運會降臨在樂觀開朗的人身上!

Poll #3: Do you know me?

My 3rd poll has been closed since a few days ago. Someone feedback to me that I've set the opening period for my poll too short. Hehe... looking at my blog's traffic, I think he is right. Thanks for the feedback and I'll improve it. Now, let me write something about the 3rd poll.

Question: Do you know me?
5 out of 7 votes are from those who know me.
The other 2 votes are from someone who do not know me.
Seems like my blogs not only viewed by those who know me. Feel good to know that. ;P

When I was thinking about this question, in fact I asked myself what will I answer to this question. For myself, I might answer "No".

Sound a bit pathetic but I think that will be my answer. Hard to explain why but... this is also the reason why I did not write anything at the "about me" sections. Maybe I am just lazy to think of any suitable description to descript myself.

For those who know me, can you help me know more about me? Hehe...

Grad photos with family taken by using my K850i

As posted in my previous post, I was back in BM to take my graduation photos with my family. We decided to take the photos at France & Taipei at Megamall there. As the shop do not give us soft copy for free and we think it would be not worth it to buy them at such expensive price, we took some photos ourselves at the shop using my K850i (5.0 megapixels).

From the left: dajie, ah 4, mummy, myself, eva and daddy.

Taken by ah 4, with her artistic angle.

My family, myself and my K850i from the mirror.

The two person who brought me to the today me.

Dajie who purposely came back from KL for this photo taking.

My pretty sister, Ah 4.

My cutie sister, Eva.

Myself.

Myself again, with a cool post.

Myself, acting cool again.

Final countdown: 15 hrs

Tonight will be the last night I stay in my current unit in Bukit Panjang. Next stop will be at Hougang.

I have been staying here for about one year plus. Although sharing with housemate, we still considered as own the whole unit, as in not staying with the owner. We have our freedom and space over here. Thus, you can imagine, how many things we can have over here with having the freedom to buy anything (as long as we have money) and the space to put all the stuff we bought.

This time round, due to some reason we need to move. As it's a bit hard to find housemate now, we decided to rent a room (to save money). With the help of housing agent, we found this place in Hougang, within 10-15 minutes walking distance from Hougang Mall. It is a common room (as in no attached toilet) and we will need to stay with the owner. This would mean less freedom and less space.

LESS SPACE!!! With all the stuff we have, we have been doing the throwing and packing since last few weeks. This throw, that throw, throw throw throw... We did throw a lot of stuff, but there are still have many bags of clothes, many boxes of comics and CDs as well as some other stuff. It is a tiring process. But it is good to have periodically cleaning.

Now, we almost done with all our packing. Waiting for tomorrow to come and officially move in to the new room we rent. How will everything be? We don't know. Hopefully, everything will go smoothly.

Here, I would like to thank to my cousin who helped me to move some of my stuff today. And for those coming to help tomorrow, thanks in advance.

Poll #2: Are you also a blogger?

Seems like my poll became slightly more popular already.

From the result, it could show a few things:
1. All my readers are blogger. (direct interpretation)
2. Only bloggers read my blog.
3. Only bloggers read blogs.
4. Non-bloggers seldom read blogs.
5. Non-bloggers do not read my blog.
6. Non-bloggers too shy to vote as a non-blogger.
7. ....

Anyone has any other creative ways to interpretate this poll result?

In the mean time, it's time for me to think of the 3rd question.

cough syrup+block nose tablet+phelgm tablet+antibiotic tablet=drownsiness

As you can read from the subject, I fall sick again. In fact, I never fully recovered since April that I also left a post about I fallen sick.

I was so act smart that I didn't take the medicine given by the doctor. Thinking that with a lot of water is sufficient enough.

Yesterday, I can't take it anymore. I went to see doctor and got myself some medicine (all stated in the subject, of course with my one day MC also). After a light breakfast, I became an obedient patient and took all the medicine with correct dosage.

The doctor doesn't lie. He told me that the medicine (cough syrup and block nose tablet) he gave me will cause drownsiness. They really work. After less than half an hour, I felt sleepy and fall asleep very soon. I slept for more than 4 hours, from about 12 sth to about 5 sth.

I wonder am I too tired after a few days trip back in Pg or due to the chemical reaction of the medicine that I slept for so long. However, I would say that I did feel better after the 4-5 hours rest.

Today, I took one set (all medicine except cough syrup) each after taken my breakfast and lunch in office. Since then, the only thing in my mind for whole day is, "I should have taken another day of MC today".

It's totally no fun become "sick cat".

三步一拜

卫塞节当天的大清早，我们一家人就跟随妈妈到槟城慈济的静思堂去。妈妈说慈济那里会举办一个三步一拜的仪式（好像是叫朝三或三朝的）。

5时正，我们抵达静思堂，那里的师姑师伯们给我们鞋袋和指示，比如鞋子该放哪里，我们该站哪里， 该怎么排，念经时该怎么走及怎么拜等等的。

其实，念的经是很简单的几个字，“喃摩本释世家摩呢佛”。脚步和手势也是很简单的，三步一拜，顾名思义就是走三步拜一次。走的路程也是简单的，围绕着静思堂一圈，都是较为干净清洁的路，没有上山下山，更没有大石子脏垃圾等。

听起来好像还蛮容易的，说真的也其实不难。只不过，也没有想象中那么容易。

人多了，要互相配合不简单。一个接一个的，要跟着脚步，不踩到别人，避免离前面的太远却要留足够的距离下跪不容易。

想想平时，以车代步， 绕静思堂一圈不过几分钟的事，即使是普通漫步也不许太多时间。可是这天，我们花了几乎两个小时才能顺利地走完。

从中，我了解了一些事情。人生的道路，不会都是顺利，不过也不会都是不幸。偶尔，我的双膝跪的地方会是平地，但是偶尔会是砖块和砖块之间缝隙。虽然一路难走，而且还要走路下跪的，很多时候都有要放弃完成的念头，但是看着别人坚持的走，激发了自己也要坚持地继续走。就因为这点坚持，我完成了整个仪式， 总算功德圆满。

现在，我的双脚还留有三步一拜的痕迹。双脚酸酸累累的，膝盖还有一些瘀青，但是这些都会过去。

Trip back to Penang

I was back at Penang for the past 3 days (17-19 May 2008) as we have a holiday on Monday (Vesak Day). I took this oportunity to go back home because I miss Penang very much. My last trip back to Pg was during CNY. It seems to be quite long I did not go back. I miss my family, I miss my home, I miss Pg food... and they are all in Penang. (in fact, not all my family member stay in Pg now)

Anyway, I have a list of task I need to do during this trip back home.
1. take grad photo with my family members (you read it correctly, I went back this time to take my graduation photos. Don't misunderstood it, I did graduated last year just did not take the photos till now. Thanks to my sisters, back from KL to take these photos with me. Thanks to my parents also cause they still smiling even though they were very tired. Need to thanks my youngest sister also. I felt good to have spent time with them doing this although the photo price very expensive. However, it would be better if we can have one more person with us. Miss her so much.)
2. vision check (if not wrong, my last check was two years ago.)
3. eat Pg food (yummy.. I waited so long to eat Pg food. I even prepared a list of "must eat food" in my mind. Pg char keow tiao, Pg hokkien mee, Pg wantan mee, Pg cendol, Pg ice kacang, mummy's homemade pig leg in vinegar, Pg laksa, Pg curry mee, Pg jawa mee etc... I managed to eat some of them but not all. Some people might think, "you can find most of them in Sg also ma". To this people, "you are wrong!!!" Sg food are no fight to Pg food. I think most of Penangites who stay here will agree with me.)
4. bring cookies back sg for my colleagues
5. bring some of my stuff back to bm (need to clear some of my stuff, cause need to move again soon.)
6. meet with some of my RC friends

Although I am very tired, not enough sleep, not enough rest throughout the trip, I still felt happy that I went back to BM.

First poll result

I've started a poll one week ago. This poll was opened for a period of one week.

After this one week, I finally got my first poll result.

Poll question: Which language do you prefer? (I mean for my blog)
Option: English, Chinese, Malay , Japanese (these are some of the languages I know)

Deng Deng Deng Deng......

Total number of vote: 3 (thank you the 3 of you very much. in fact, the 1st 2 votes were voted after I forced them to cast their vote. This shows my blog is very low profile.)
Highest vote: English with 2 votes (to thank the 2 of the 3 royal readers, I write this post in English)
2nd highest vote: Chinese
Lowest vote: Malay and Japanese (luckily no one vote for these 2 languages, wonder if I still manage to write a complete passage in these 2 languages)

Now I know, English is prefered. Thus, I'll try my best to write more in English. Hopefully everyone can bare for my poor and "private limited" English.

Since this poll is closed, let me think of another poll question. Suggestions and ideas are welcomed. ;)

静思语

It's HOT!!!!!!!!!

It's very very very extremely super HOT now....
Not mentally "hot" but is the weather.
How long can I stand this hot weather without air-con?

All, please save the earth, save yourself.
Be green.
Always be environmental friendly.

Opps.. since when I became so "green"?
Dunno. Just know that everyone effect count.
A man is a man, no matter how small.

一個人的態度，決定他的高度

心若改變，態度跟著改變；
態度改變，習慣跟著改變；
習慣改變，性格跟著改變；
性格改變，人生跟著改變。

一个人

一个人真的可以作重要的决定吗？重要的程度到哪？
一个人真的可以自己独个儿生存吗？能独个儿多久？
一个人真的可以不理会别人的心意吗？不算自私吗？

一个人真的可以想怎样就怎样吗？
一个人真的可以说了就算吗？
一个人真的可以把所有感受抒发出来吗？

复杂的情绪

发现这两个星期里自己的情绪变化复杂。
开心，快乐，伤心，痛苦，烦躁，担心，害怕。。。等等等等矛盾的心情在心里。
有时真的觉得很辛苦，情绪的变化实在很大。
有时有一点累。。。
最可怜的是我的指甲，他们被我遗留四处。
放心，我想我还没有崩溃。
只不过，偶尔会想，崩溃的人是不是也曾经历过这些。。。

Less than half an hour

In less than half an hour time, I'll need to call for a conference call meeting. So lazy but nothing I can do to not to call...

In fact, I can have a reason. I am sick... Since last last Saturday till now still haven't recovered. Sigh... The virus in my body really like me too much.

Anyway, still have 23 minutes... Better get myself prepare for the meeting later. ;)

微笑的力量

曾经，我在另一个部落格里写过这么一片“微笑以后”。
里边有一句“微笑和年龄的增长成了对比”。
那时，总觉得微笑好像比以前来的困难。
朋友好意地逗我开心，却成了我泄气的对象。

最近，读到一篇文章，微笑的力量足以感染周围的人。
我想试试。。。

Uncertainties.... Interesting???

After some up and down, I've finally got myself to sort of settle down. Trying very hard to get myself to a more normal life. (might not be very hard, but since i am a lazy and slacking type...)

Registered to the PAssion card early this year in Jan, thinking to join some of the courses in CC with cheaper member price. Was so enthu when the moment I paid for the PAssion card membership fees. (for those who know me well should know what will happen later. ;p) Drag..Drag.. Drag... Giving myself with a lot of different excuses. Thus, the first course (yoga) was signed up in March. Two months time for me to finally decide to sign up a course. Sigh.. I am so lazy.

Today, I went to the 2nd course (aerobics dance) for the 1st session. It was a tiring session but fun and exciting. To compare both Yoga and Aerobics, they are totally different. Yoga is soft and relaxing whereby Aerobics are more active and tiring. Yoga teacher told us to breath thru our nose only but not our mouth whereas the Aerobics teacher told us to breath in thru our nose and breath out thru mouth and nose.

Anyway, I really enoy going to both the classes, at least I have some work up every week.

But....... It seems like we shouldn't have a stable life. The moment I found myself in a more stable and settled down life, I got a bad/good news of the day. In short, I might need to move again. Hai... It is bad because it is really not that fun to move every few months. Tiring, time consuming, giving headache and also hurt the wallet. It might be good because we can change to a new place which might be more convenient to us (work and go kai kai).

Hai... Life is full of uncertainties, which make life more interesting.

Seems recovering but getting serious

Virus attacked!!!

1st attack: sausage lips (again.. sien....)
2nd attack: sore throat
3rd attack: fever
4th attack: cough
5th attack: runny nose

When can they stop attacking me?????
MC yesterday, thought recovering soon.
Work today, think I might need another day of MC.

Please all drink more water and rest more....

Acknowledgement

While studying HRM, we learned about different types of job satisfaction and also different kinds of motivation. Those were all in theory.

After working, I started to think of what is my job satisfaction and what is my motivation. Bonus? Increment? They are for sure a form of motivator, but they are better to be considered as the hygiene factor. Hygiene factor is the factor where having it might not motivate you, but without it might demotivate you. As for me, I sure happy when given bonus or increment. However, they are something given to everyone. Thus, the happy and joyful feeling left very soon. (left very soon better than being demotivated. hehehe..)

Today, I realised a great form of job satisfaction and excellent motivation. They are the "Acknowledgement". I can't really describe how great it is being acknowledged by someone especially your boss, but it really feel good and nice and refreshing and.... It is like after some hard work (maybe not very hard or maybe it's really hard), someone see it and appreciate it. And you know what you have been doing is something worth-doing. This is also like a guide for the direction and path forward.

Not good in describing. Anyway, I am just very happy and energised. Thanks boss. I'll keep my promise as to continue work harder and looking forward to the next acknowledgement. ;p

我怀念的：臭汗味版

今天和薇薇约好下班后去逛书店。虽然逛书店很不是我的性格，但是我还是去了。结果还买了两本书，还算蛮有收获的。

和薇薇在豫浪东站分别后，一个人的我拿出其中一本战利品开始品尝。搭轻快铁回家的途中，有一群男孩走进轻快铁。由于我还蛮陶醉于那本战利品，开始时并没有注意到他们的出现。只是慢慢的，开始嗅到一股蛮重的臭汗味。抬头一看，三个中学男生。

到站后，我在想，为何现在的青少年像是不顾虑到周围的人。这么臭就不好出来吧。

想着想着，就想起中一到中四的自己。

中一开始，我就加入了红星月会。当时的我进入红星的其中一个原因是不想浪费姐姐定做的红星制服，其他的也没有去想。不去理会还有什么团体也不去理会红星的活动或要求。

加入后，接触到的不只是急救上的常识，还有一连串的步操训练和一个接一个的筹备活动。

有点夜了，明天继续。。。。 ;p

Hungry.....

I am very hungry now... Waiting for the "golden pillow" delivered to me. The operator said, will be delivered at abt 8 sth or 9 sth.

Oh god... I am really hungry...

Before I start writing this post, I was reading someone's blog. He is a "food hunter". He do not know he got such a name cause I just creater it for him 5 seconds ago... His blog is all about the foods he ate with some of his comments. In fact, I should add another word in front, "rich food hunter". He had been flied to quite a lot of places in 3 months time. California, Japan, Thailand, Hong Kong etc... Reading his blog made me more hungry. And so, I decided stop reading for a while and write on my own blog.

It seems doing something else do not distract myself from the starving feeling. I am gonna find something to eat now.

Shag...

SHAGGG....

This word has been used in my msn nick for a few days already. A few of my friends ask me why am I so shag.

My reply to them is, there are quite a few issues came to me these few days. A bit lost to do not know how to handle them properly. That make me think of what cause me so lost.

1. I am too "cincai" with most of the things for the past. Seems like i seldom take things serious. Neither studies nor life. For studies, as long as can pass it's enough and don't bother to understand more detail or remember them after exam. For life, don't bother to learn anything (other than what i learn from school) seriously.

2. I was too used to the "tao bi" way of solving problem. In fact, the problem never solved with this stupid and coward method.

And so, i told myself these are some of the bad habit which shouldn't have on me. From now on, I must not be so "whatever" style. When learn somethings, really need to learn by heart. I started with paying S$50 for the yoga class. I told myself that i must not skip any of the class. If possible, practice them at home. Good start har?? ;p;p

As to how to throw away the bad habit of "tao bi", still thinking of a more practical solution. But currently, I think solving the issues i met in my work can be considered as part of the training to face problem. Any suggestions?

我怀念的：中六考试版

突然想起是时候为部落格添些想法了。人老了，开始担心有一天会把一切给忘了，想到就记了下来。

刚才搭巴士回家的途中，站在我前面的是一群JC（Junior College）的学生。从他们的外表与谈吐看到他们年轻的样子，也看到他们年轻的心态。

想想自己有点老了， 和他们差不多年龄已是几年前的事情了。该算是中六的那两年吧。

随着，很多中六的画面都涌了出来。

自己一个人，穿着黑色的外套，坐在学校礼堂的台上考试（应该没有几个人有这机会吧。）。那次的考试，我尝到中学里第一次上台领全年总成绩优异奖（全理科生排名第九/十/十一）。可能在台上考试是有帮助的。；p

放弃题目。这是考PA的时候吧。记得PA有一题是画graph的， 应该是20分的题目。也不知道自己是为什么的，看着题目，脑海里就是没有哪个冲动要把它给做完。结果就左摸摸，右摸摸，考试时间还没结束就已经没有了20分。还好，其他的做得还不错，还可以及格。总成绩来说，还满意的。。 哈哈。。

错一题。这其实没什么值得高兴的。STPM Trial Exam 的时候，我的Physic选择题50题里就只错了一题。听起来好像很不错，有些朋友还来不及做完所有的题目，而我竟有时间重检几次。其实啊，50 题都是往年的考题。而当时的我，“努力”到做了很多年的测试（随朋友复印了很多，不做很浪费），这50题我几乎都做过了。竟然还有落网之鱼，真是的。。。

除了疯狂的，也有烂的。记得有一个英文测试（MUET），好几个朋友一次就靠了个Band 5(1 最差，6最好）。而我，靠了两次还是3此才"成功"考到Band 4。 真差劲。。。。

考试版暂时告一段落，我要去冲凉了。