What am I doing now?

For those who know me well and observative enough, will know what I am doing.

However, I'll still like to let others know what I am doing now. ;p

Listening to Stephanie Sun's songs. (now is I don;t like)
Looking at my laptop.
Writing my blog.
Waiting for lunch.

Brain in standby mode now....
Stomach in fighting mode now....
Finger in slow mode now....
Body in worm mode now....
Face in stone mode now....

Ai yo... I don't know what am I doing now la.

*************
This is not normal..
But this is a normal reaction when someone is starving and brain not functioning well.
Maybe not to you but yes for me.
Btw, the song no longer the same already. now is my love.

那个第一天

刚才，走着回来的路途中，脑海里突然涌起第一天来这儿（聪敏的人应该知道这儿是哪里，不便说得太明了）的画面 。

第一天的我，身穿一套正经十足的上班服，保护着我的脚的是一双死咬我脚的黑色包鞋，头发则是整齐的马尾。那时的我，就是那么一个“标准”的上班女郎。今天的我，比大学生还来得大学生（T-恤，牛仔和运动包鞋），一天比一天穿得简单方便。

那天，我的桌上就只有几样最基本需要的用具。曾经问过我的“邻居”，为何他的桌子那么多东西我的却没有。现在看看我的桌子，虽然还没有到达他的境界，垃圾却越来越多了。

过去的一切，藏在脑海，偶尔回忆也是乐事。

坚持

有好一短时间没有认真地打理我的部落格了。原因？没有话题，太忙了，太累了，懒惰了。

前者，没有话题吗？其实也不算。从我曾经一度疯狂写部落格开始，脑海里会时不时想到不同不同的话题。所以这原因不成立。

太忙了？白天做工，放工后偶尔煮饭烧菜的，吃饱晚餐上上网，继续一些下班前还没有完成的首尾。很忙吗？工作方面的责任慢慢增加了，每一个要做的决定都需要想清楚，查清楚。

太累了？有时吧。不过，不算原因，倒算借口。

懒惰？相信是罪魁祸首。

我要摆脱懒惰这个恶魔，我需要定力，我需要坚持。

Welcome to this world

I went back to Penang last few days. Although it was very tired, i felt nice and good for this trip back to my house.

The first time I carried a 3 days old baby. He is my nephew, Sebastian Ang.

Sebastian

Sebastian and ah gong

Sebastian and ah ma

Sebastian and papa

Sebastian and 3 yee

Sebastian and 4 yee

Sebastian and ah yee

Sebastian

Sorry that I can't upload Sebastian and mummy for some reasons behind. ;p;p

My house

Got this personality test from wei wei's blogspot. Quite fun but really hard to draw with mouse.


Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. son. When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

Draw your house.

升级了

昨天，我升级了。 （高兴吧！？）

工作上的？别发梦了，还没有这么快吧。

高度？我也想，醒醒吧，过了发育期了。

网上游戏的？荒废了一段时期了，加上电脑垮了。

猜不到吧，hehehehehehehehehehehehe....

是身份啦。

不了解？哈哈哈。。。因为我的大姐生了个小男孩，是我父母的第一个外孙，我几姐妹的第一个外甥（称呼对吗？）。现在的我不再只是三姐而已了，我升级成三姨了。

虽然三姨感觉好像老了一点（对不起全天下的三姨，没有别的意思的），不过，家里添加个孩子是非常兴奋的。

高喊大姐万岁！！！！

我的4年

几天前，有个蛮熟的大学执行人员（admin staff） 告诉我她将到我的中学做宣传，希望我可以写些对我的大学的小小感受。看到她的要求时，毫无考虑地就答应了。

几天后，脑袋还是一片空白，不知道自己该写些什么。

4年了，我问自己，该有什么感想？该有什么感觉？该有些什么感触？我不知道。最起码，暂时的我还没有答案。

忙碌，盲目，是暂时在我脑海里浮现的两个词。

忙碌地完成每一年不同的使命，课业上的，活动上的，生活上的。
盲目地完成每一年不同的使命，课业上的，活动上的，生活上的。

是人开始老了，脑袋不太灵活去想了， 还是那就是我的4年大学生涯？

那你的呢？

A little updates

It has been quite some time I abandon this blog. ;p;p Sorry to all my readers.

A lot of things happened for the past few weeks, including my convocation ceremony, my parents and sister visit to singapore, my graduation evening, my additional living status in Singapore, last trip to ica building (at least for the time being, "last" trip) and etc.....

Oh ya, surely i dun wanna to miss out this, I've finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow. What I think about this ending? Better dun discuss here first, or those haven't read will block my blogspot. ;p;p

So tired. Dunno what to think.. brain not functioning well.. ;p;p

活起来

今天和一位同事谈起话（第一次谈话），感觉很好。从她那里得到了一些关于长跑的节目，触发了我的一点想法。

发现到，我老是爱讲羡慕以前的我，以前的我比较有活力，现在的我已经没有当年的疯狂了什么的。今天才了解到当我再讲这些话的当儿，我其实是在原地踏步的。

大学的四年，自己对人，对事，对兴趣，对生活，对一切一切的热诚渐渐的减少。可能，就因为自己执著着过去的辉煌，而不愿前进。

想通了，我要活起来，不再过着昏睡般的生活，我要获得比以前更加精彩。

我要坚持！！！

A few trips to ICA

Thanks god that I have my pr application process almost done. Now, left only the collection of IC.

Since that day, 28 May 2007 (if not wrong), I've went to ICA a few times more than most of my friends.

28th May, went there twice as I forgot to bring my original birth cert (i brought the photocopy one but left the original one at home. dunno for wat.). I had to rush back to my home, get the original birth cert and rush back to ICA.

8th June, the third time I went there. This time was to cancel the first temp employment pass. (long story, sad story, don't ask me to tell you ;p;p)

15th June, the forth time of my trip to ICA. This time was to reapply temp employment pass.

19th July, should be my last 2nd trip to ICA for PR application purpose. (Really hope so)

After stuck in the level 5 of ICA building for so many times (and also so many hours), it's a relieve that this process will be ending soon. Good luck and all the best to those still waiting. Feel free to ask me if you have any question regarding the process at level 5 of ICA building, I'll try to answer your question if I can. ;p;p

To go next: 3rd storey-ICA building.

最近的感触

最近总有好些感触和想法。

一天一天的过去，代表着在这世界上多活一天了，也代表着应该学习的增加了，更代表着应负的责任多了。

曾经听过一句话，“小孩子希望快点成长，大人却希望时间停留在年轻的时候。”

感觉上这句话还蛮真实的，偶尔自己也有这种想法。不过，开始懂了要珍惜现在，享受现在。

生命中每一个阶段都有它的意义与乐趣，而扮演的角色更有不同。

从开始学爬，到会走会跳会跑。曾经跌倒，却多谢家人和朋友的扶起。
从以前的饭来张口，到现在的成了阿姨般到超级市场买菜煮饭。开始越学越多的菜肴，也更了解了粒粒皆辛苦。

开始接手自己的工作责任，有点的兴奋，有点的担心，有点的冲劲，有点的对自己多了些要求。

人的一生充满了甜酸苦辣，应该好好感受个别的意义，惊喜和乐趣。逆来顺受，知足常乐，珍惜现在，创造未来。

a new start

start from today, i've moved out from my suilian dong.
start from today, i have all my stuff at this new place.
start from today, i am not belongs to block 917.
start from today, i need to settle down at block 619.

thanks to my friends who helped my to move my stuff.
thanks to my friends who offered help for moving stuff.
thanks to my friends who drink my red bean soup.
thanks to my friends who visited my house.

welcome my friends and everyone i know to my house.
welcome my friends and everyone i know to have gathering at this place.
welcome my friends and everyone i know to own some sweet memories here.
welcome my friends and everyone i know to visit me at "long mountain".

两个星期

就这样，我开始上班也有两个星期了。

时间过得好快好快，回想这两个星期做了什么，好像不太多。可能真的不太多，可能我的记忆有点不太好。

暂时还蛮享受这里的一切，希望往后的日子也一样或更好。 ;p;p

成功了！！

手术成功了！！！

就在6月26日，他被送进手术室。几个小时后，医生告知他手术成功了。

现在的他正在医院静养着，一切还算蛮顺利的。

明天，他可以出院了。

谢谢大家的关心和给于的支持。

等待

Sorry for not posting what I promised in the previous post. Just feel like posting this now.

还是用华语写吧。

几年前，就已经不太喜欢等待的感觉。中五成绩放榜时，曾经想过报读私利学院，原因是不想再有等待放榜的感觉。最后，还是选择了中六。

还好，中六的成绩一直保持着水平，折磨性的等待没有那么强烈。

几个星期前，大学最后一个学期的成绩放榜了。因为是上网检查成绩的原故，网络的暂时lagging，引起短暂的紧张等待。

现在，我又再次面临煎熬般的等待。等待着他的手术开始。等待着他的手术顺利完成。等待着他的来电报平安。等待着他的痊愈。虽然，不算是大手术（他说的），看着他手上的那些针孔，还是有些担心。希望他可以顺顺利利的完成这个手术。

SHOCK

It was my third day of work yesterday. I suppose to write this last night but until I as done with most of the things, it was almost 2am already. Very tired.

So, my third day of work. Finally, I got my company PC back after sent to IT mobile for some PC configuration. I am now able to start any work with this PC already. So good. ;p;p Thanks to my colleagues for helping me up with some applications and PC setting, I should be able to start a real working life soon (=end of honeymoon orientation, hehe... ;p;p).

While I was settling with all those applications and settings, I received a call from my boy friend. I was stunned after answering to the call as he told me that his colleague call him an ambulance to hospital. (look carefully that it's ambulance but not a cab) I was damn shock. I dunno what to say and no words in my mind. Before I remember to ask him what happen, he told me that he fainted a few times in the toilet. His CEO saw him fainted in the toilet and ask another colleague to move him out from the toilet. They then call for an ambulance.

Oh no... What had actually happened. For a while, I was thinking what can I do. Can I just go out to visit him? Can I accompany him in the hospital? Can I..... But the next thing come out from my mind was, this was just the third day of my work. Will it be good if I apply urgent half day leave? And finally, I decided to visit him after work since I am not the doctor and cant help much. What I can do is take him something he might need in the hospital from home after work.

In hospital, I dunno what to ask. This seems to be the first time that I visited someone close to me alone. (normally parent ask everything then I listen) When I arrived, his boss and colleague were there. He told me that Dr still dunno what is the cause and suspected is inflamation. Will take some tests today.

Before I leave, he asked me to bring back some of his things, including his clothes which contain of blood. (btw, the reason he fainted is because of bleeding) I'll need to help him clean up those clothes. As the blood stained on his clothes for the whole day already, they have a super strong blood smell. I almost vomit last night when I open the plastic bag. sigh... After asking some friends (current housemate and ex-housemates), they taught me to pour with hot water first. Then, I boiled water (many rounds), stucked my noses with tissue paper and started with the cleaning at almost 12am last night or this morning. That made me slept so late at abt 2am.

Hope that he will be alright and may god bless him. I'll always be there for him and give him my full support.

After this incident, I then realised that working and studying life are really different. hai.. Will discuss about the difference in next post. ;p

First day

It was a tiring first day. Actually, I did nothing much today but somehow, eyes very heavy. Just walking a lot. From building to building and office to office. And thus, my foot started to complain to my brain. ;p

I would say, so far so good... At least I still havent regret with the decision made a few weeks ago. ;p;p

All the best and good luck to me and every of you.

wait wait wait

Finally, the final year final sem results released already. I already knew my results thru degree audit there. For all my previous results, I checked from there. But, class of honor won't be shown at the degree audit page. Thus, I tried to check thru the exam result page.

Loading.... Done..... these are the two words i saw for many times.

I can't access the web page, all my friends also can't. Maybe because too many people access at the same time or all the results are uploaded at the same time. I also dunno. What to do? Wait wait wait...

What I know is, I am very nervous. I afraid my class of honor I'll see later will not be the one I hope for. I had the feeling this sad case will happen. Sigh... pray hard and keep my fingers cross.

Anyway, a good news to be announced, I passed all the subjects. I can grad ald. Hehehe... I even got my first and last A+ in NTU. No regret in NTU already. Congratz to myself. Hehehe....

Congratz to my friends also. So far, all my friends passed all the subjects and can grad. Hehe.. One of them got 1st class honor. He is so great. Congratz to him. I know that there will still a lot friends getting excellent results, congratz to all of you. You can now be NTU alumni already.

17-05-07 GIP gathering, Fish & Co

After one year, GIP3 Shanghai friends came out for a gathering organised by Jun Yan. Thanks Jun Yan for this wonderful night. Met a few who disappear for quite some time (I am the one who disappear to them, hehe).

After two weeks...

It has been quite some time I abandon this blog. This is because I was back to my hometown in BM for a week. There, I seldom online and lazy to online also. ;p;p Spent most of the time watching series with my sisters, tidying part of my house and slacking (most of the time) at home. Enjoy these few days very much. Lying on the bed watching prison break with my sis at night till quite late and lazy to wake up the next morning for jogging. Ate a lot of my favourite food which I can't find in Singapore. But, too bad, happy time always so short. It's time to go back to Singapore. Before I really went to take bus, I actually thought of pospone the trip back to Sg. However, it's a bit late as I've confirmed the bus ticket. Sigh...

I reached Singapore yesterday morning. It was a tiring day. After about 12 hours bus journey, I didn't really have enough rest before I went to school to settle some of my FYP stuff and do some photocopying. I think yesterday will be the last day I go to school before convo.

Today was not an easy day as well. Need to wake up quite early in the morning. Went to ICA to settle my PR application stuff. As predicted by my sis, I really a big head prawn. I checked all the documents needed a few times before I left home. But end up with, I need to come back again to take a piece of original cert. (brought all the photocopies and left one of the original copy at home, stupid me, sigh) But finally, I still get my thing done. hehe...

After I thought everything has done, I met a decision making point again. Fell into the dilemma I faced last few weeks again. What needed to be face, can't be avoided. Then, I just made another decision a few minutes ago. I not sure whether I'll regret on this desicion I've made or not. But, I will not know it anymore because I've chosen not to know. Anyway, I know I always got support from my family and friends, at least my da jie had promised me that she will give me support already. Thanks very much.

就这么一天

终于，做了这个决定。无论是好或坏，只有以后才知道。

看回之前自己写下的post，有一篇需要一些更改了。至于是哪一篇呢？要怎么改呢？现在有点懒惰。

今天，走了很多路，做了很多事情。其中包括报考这里的交通Basic Theory Test (BTT)。7月会要考试，考过了这么多的试，总算毕业了，自己还去报考其他试。真有点不太了解自己。不过，有谁要考可以一起考。

Big day

Tomorrow will become one of my big day. For those who know, yes, you know it. For those who still don't know, you will gonna know it very soon.

A bit indecisive, but, it seems to be a logical decision to most of the people. Not because of the difficulties of making a decision, but it's the effect and the result of making this decision struggling me.

Anyway, thanks to those who gave me advices. I do consider every advice you gave me.

Graduated

Today is monday. 4 days after my FYP oral presentation. That presentation is sort of our last test in NTU. Thus, after this final last test, we considered as graduated (if no accident happen, ;p).

There is a lot of feeling now. Cant really descibe them. But, I am sure, I miss all my friends in NTU, especially those best friends in NTU.

Don't know what to say here. I am just "nua-ing" on the bed. ;p;p

Wish all good luck and all the best.

My careless mistake

Today, when I left my house and reached the lift at level 6, I met a uncle holding a "tongkat" there. We both waiting for the lift to go down to level 1. It happened that the lift in front of me open the door, and so, I enter the lift first.

Since the uncle holding tongkat, I was thinking that I should go in first then press on the door open button so that the door won't close while the uncle was entering the lift. (the lift door got some problem one, close door very fast.) I was trying to be a kind girl today.

But, but, but, don't know what happened to my hand, my eyes and my brain. When I press the button, the door did not remain open but it end up closing. I was a bit shock because the uncle was in his way entering the lift. I keep pressing the button and hope that it will open but end up it closed and left me alone in the lift.

I was a bit blur why this happen. Why the lift door closed when I press the "door open" button. However, just within a few seconds, I felt extremely sorry to that uncle. I realised that the button I pressed was not the door open button but the door close button. Oh my.... What had I done? I was trying to be kind but actually what I did can make the uncle got injured. Sigh... So so so so sorry uncle. I didn't mean to hurt you.

Sigh... I wonder why I did something like that. I laugh at wy when he pressed on the wrong button before. And today, I did it myself. I really had no idea that I actually pressed on the wrong button. After a while, I had a conclusion, I think I am too used to press that button after I enter the lift. Sigh... Anyway, with no excuses, I really did something wrong. I sincerely felt sorry to that uncle.

It's just not my day today

Emm... Not feeling so well today, not enough sleep, eat a pao with a weird smell, then went toilet three times in just a morning (diarrhea once). Just felt not so good today. This gave me a bad sign and seems to be not so good luck for me today. Wondering is there any method to break this bad sign? ;p;p

HaeGirl

When a man bitten by a spider, he is called spiderman.
When a girl bitten by a prawn, what is she called?

I have thought of a nice name for her. "HaeGirl" aka "prawngirl".

What super power does this HaeGirl has?
She act like hae, speak like hae, and do everything like hae.

Hokkien teaching session:
"hae" = prawn
As hokkien people like to use animal to describe people, eg, "kun tu" = sleeping pig (to describe someone who sleep a lot). They like to use "hae" to scold other when the person did something wrong, "like a hae like that".

do you want some tips from us

Would like to share this post written by wei wei with you. That is the essence of a whole night "story telling". I sort of lazy to write a new post to descript the same things. Heheh.. Just too lazy. Feel free to visit do you want some tips from us.

If you happen to have other tips, leave in comment, I still need them. :P:P

Housemates

I realised that my house got a weird habit. The picture below is the proof of the weird habit. ;p;p



Hehe...

For msn users should know what the picture shows. That is the list of msn user in a common chatroom.

For most of the NTU friends will know who are the two msn user in the same chatroom. Actually there are 3 in the same chatroom, the third is surely me myself. The two girls in the list are both my housemates.

So, the weird habit is, these 3 girls like to chat in the same msn chatroom in the same house.

Haha... They will kill me when they saw this post. ;p;p

This habit doesn't mean that we don't talk to each others, just that we know how to have some "qing qu" sometimes. Hehe...

MUST DO list

1. prepare for my FYP oral presentation
2. tidy up my fyp details and burn into cd
3. print fyp report (hard cover one)
4. get a job
5. read more english books to improve my english (too lousy now)(at least must finish the two dale carnegie's book i bought)
6. take more photos with friends
7. go home
8. meet all my secondary school friends
9. read newspaper everyday (hopefully can have this habit)
10. revise my japanese language and learn more
11. watch animes and dramas and read manga.... hehehe
12. Exercise (play squash again, swimming and jogging at least once a week. ;p;p)

If you got any suggestion on what else should I do, let me know. I can only think of these few now.

Post-last paper mode

Wooohoooo.... I have finished my last paper this morning.

Requested by some of my readers via msn, I started writing this post after a nap. ;p;p A good blogger shouldn't dissapoint his or her readers. hahahahahaha....

Not much feeling after last paper, quite a big release plus some tiredness. It's true that I can be more relax now while waiting for my FYP oral presentation on next Thursday. However, I need to face back to some unsolved issues which I holded on during exam period. A lot of question pop up in my mind again.

Thus, I really need to spend some time on thinking what am I suppose to do next. List out all the MUST DO mission and start doing it. Mayb any of you have suggestions on adding the list please feel free to leave comment. I will consider them. ;p;p

Hopefully the life after graduation will be more wonderful. By the way, I started missing my school life already. How about you?Hehehe...

Pre-last paper mode

In about an hour time, I will be taking my last paper of my final year exam in NTU. A bit tired, cause cannot sleep last night. Not so sure about the reason. But anyway, that is not the main point of this post.

The main thing is, I gonna take my last paper soon. Thanks to HC and ikan for their morning call. I appreciatied that very much. HC told me that after few more hours, I gonna be "bang se" (similar to freed). Emm... ya, true but not all correct, cause I still have my final year project oral presentation to go. Hehehe....

Jia you jia you for the last paper. All the best and good luck to me and all...

毕业前的噩梦

昨晚，我又发了个噩梦。我相信这恶梦是即将毕业而又还没有考完最后一张测验的同学都害怕的事。这恶梦是我在5月3日的11时才醒过来。很多朋友应该很好奇这算是什么恶梦。对，对多数人来说不是怎么一回事。不过简单的来解释我的噩梦就是，我没有去考毕业前的最后一张测验。

把这噩梦说出来是希望会像cs在前几个留言里所说的它会破解掉般，愿这恶梦永远都不会发生。

5月3日的9时至11时我一定要在考场里面。好心的朋友请确定我在那儿。多谢了。;p;p

End of the month

Haha.. Actually I have nothing to post today, but just wanna to announce the end of the month in my blog.

I am so wu liao rite? Yes, you are rite. I am very wu liao. I am supposed to study for my last paper now but I just too wu liao.

hehe...

First Love--宇多田光

This is one of my favourite song.
I included the original Japanese lyric and the 音译 version.

歌手：宇多田ヒカル 专辑：First Love

First love

最後のキスは
タバコのflavorがした
苦くてせつない香り

明日の
今顷には
あなたはどこにいるんだろう
谁を想ってるんだろう

You are always gonna be my love
いつか谁かとまた恋に落ちても
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
今はまだ悲しいlove song
新しい歌 歌えるまで

立ち止まる时间が
动き出そうとしてる
忘れたくないことばかり

明日の今顷には
私はきっと泣いてる
あなたを想ってるんだろう

You will always be inside my heart
いつもあなただけの场所があるから
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
今はまだ悲しいlove song
新しい歌 歌えるまで

You are always gonna be my love
いつか谁かとまた恋に落ちても
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
まだ悲しいlove song
Now and forever


First Love

sa i go no, ki su wa
ta ba, ko no fla i vor, a na si ta
ni a, ku te se tsu na i ka, o li
a si ka no, i ma go ro ni wa
a na ta wa do ko ni, i du n da rou
da de vo, o mo, te du mu, na ha
you will always gonna be my love
it su ka, da le ka to ma ta ko we ni o, chi te mo
I will remember to love
you taught me how
you will always gonna be the one
i ma ha wa, a, da ka na si i oh... love song one bu
a ta la si i you, ta, wu te e, ru ma de
ta chi do maru, ji ka na ga
wu go ki da so u do, si te ru
wa su le da ku na i, ko to wa ka li
a si ta no, i ma go ro ni wa
wa ta si wa ki, to, na i te ru
wa na ta o, o mo te ru n, da ha
you will always be inside my heart
i tsu mo, a na ta da ke no, ba shoe ga a, ru ka la
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
i ma ha wa, ma ta ka na si ru...some one bu
a ta ta si i you, ta, u ta e ru ma de
you will always gonna be my love
i tsu ka, da le ka to ma ta ko wi ni o, chi te mo
I wll remember to love
you taught me how
you will always gonna be the one
ma, da, ka na si i... oh...love song bu
now and forever

考试开始

wooohoooo.....

今天，有好几个人在考完试后高喊：“我考完最后一张测验了”。

听了有点心理不平衡，因为我今天才开始靠第一张测验。 :P:P

不过值得高兴的事，至少可以松一口气了。

还有两张，加油加油。。。

噩梦@恶梦

今天，我又被恶梦吓醒。这恶梦刚好就在我差不多要醒的时候发生。可能是知道只有这个方法才可以肯定地把贪睡得我叫醒。多无奈。。。

这个噩梦有点夸张，却发生的有点有理，就是要让我吓醒。

噩梦之后，一切恢复正常，唯一的改变就是刹那间心里多了一根刺，担心噩梦会有发生的一天。

朋友的喜悦

刚刚，我终于笑了。

朋友的简讯传来的喜悦令我暂且忘了之前的闷闷不乐。

也才发现，原来我的喜怒哀乐不仅受我自己影响，也可以被朋友的喜怒哀乐所感染。（应该要恭喜那位朋友）

虽然，脑海里的难题，心里的打结还没有解，就暂且把它放在一旁吧。

我不知道什么时候它们会再回来（觉得会很快），但是最起码，我应该好好享受这暂时的喜悦。

好好为大学毕业前的三张考卷打拼吧！

加油加油。。。

谢谢这几天来关心我的朋友们，你们的关心我是知道的。

我知道我不是孤军作战的。

你们的每一句问候与关心都让我好感动（有好几次几乎要哭了）。

给你们每一个人一个拥抱和一句：“谢谢你们，我爱你们”。

Moody

I am so not in the mood these few days.

Not in the mood to study, but still forcing myself to study
Not in the mood to think, but there are a lot of question in my mind
Not in the mood to smile, wei wei know this well
Not in the mood to talk, friend got scolded for the disturb he usually do

Sorry friends, I also haven't figured out what I actually want. I apologize for my moodiness.

一通电话

期待着电话铃声的响起，等待着一通电话的到来，好久好久都还是在等待。

刚刚，电话终于响了，有着刹那间的兴奋。可是，来电号码显示不像是等待中的那个。

听了这通电话，证实不是等待的那通，心里确实有点失望。

这通有点莫名其妙的电话令我有点怀疑，有点的担心。

但愿不会带来任何的坏事吧。

Memories~~ chui sui

Oh no... I can't sleep. Not because of my problem, but the unit upstairs is creating noise polution. The unit upstairs is doing renovation. The drilling sound made me can't fall asleep and almost drive me crazy ald. Arrrhhh......

Since I can't sleep, I have just uploaded some pictures in my MSN Space. After I added some caption on the pictures, I am thinking mayb I can post some interesting ones here.

Memories~~ chui sui

吹水kaki大合照

吹水王之战开始

kh暂时领先，cheong想办法回击

欲知结果，请查阅MSN Space。 ;p;p

For those who want to get the uncompressed photos, let me know and I'll think a way to send to you.

Friends, please pray for me.

I just came back from the test I mentioned in the previous post. Finally, I can have a better rest today. Although my exam is coming soon but I always believe that rest is for longer journey (direct translation from mandarin) . ;p;p

About the test, it was extremely short. (I mean the time) How well did I answer? Half know half dunno. Hope that I can pass this test. And so, all my dearest friends, please pray for me to pass the test. May god bless me. >.<

Ok then, it time to have a good rest. Oyasuminasai....

Sleepy...ZZZzzz...

OMG... OMG... OMG...

I am so so so sleepy now, but I am still not yet fully prepared for the test later. Really hope that I can be more prepared for this test compared to the previous few tests. It has been quite some time I didn't felt the joy of success, neither study or life.

Yesterday, I witnessed my friend's satisfied smile after answering a phone call. I really hope that I will be the next one having this smiling face. At least for a settle down. Hopefully, this will happen.

I am really sleepy. What should I do? Can anyone tell me? ......

All the best to me and all of you.

Last day of school life in NTU

Today is my last day of school life in NTU. My last tutorial session was ended at 430pm without discussing any question of the last tutorial. Coursemates are more interested in the revision as the last last tutorial's material is not included in the coming exam. ;p;p

Since today is my last day of school, my design partner and me tried very hard to complete our design and report by today. This motivation pushed us to a very high exhaustive level. For me, this tiredness is higher than the period while i rushing my FYP report. (although both reports are to submitted to the same person, my FYP supervisor = my design lecturer) :D

Anyway, we made it to complete our report by today. We can go back when the sky still bright. However, my partner still need to go to school tomolo as the lab technician already went home when we completed our report. So sad. Thanks to my partner, she did a lot in this design project.

So, I need to do revision for coming tests ald. Ganbatte kudasai to everyone.

Lover's Concerto--Kelly

Since there are so many people love the song at my blog, and this is also one of my favourite song. So, let's share it with you. ;p;p

This is Kelly Chen's Lover concerto:

how gentle is the rain
that falls softly on the meadow
birds high up on the trees
serenade the clouds with their melodies
oh

see there beyond the hill
the bright colors of the rainbow
some magic from above
made this day for us
just to fall in love

you'll hold me in your arms
and say once again you'll love me
and that your love is true
everything will be just as wonderful

now
i belong to you
from this day until forever
just love me tenderly
and i'll give to you every part of me
oh

don't ever make me cry
through long lonely nights without us
be always true to me
keep this day in your heart eternally

you hold me in your arms
and say once again you love me
and that your love is true
everything will be just as wonderful

Enjoy it.

毕业感言

又是一篇无主题的post。

什么心情？很复杂。
什么感受？很复杂。
什么想法？很复杂。

现在才了解原来自己是个复杂的人。;p

就快要大学毕业了。

记得中五毕业时，我的毕业刊的感言是：
没有花开，没有花落；
没有相聚，没有别离；
老朋友，有空聚聚！
谁能够扬帆没有风向 （这一句是和几个好朋友分开写的一首歌，光良品冠的“朋友”。）

中六毕业时，感言是：
两年前，
没有花开，没有花落；
没有相聚，没有别离；
两年后，
没有花落，没有花开；
没有别离，没有相聚；
老话一句，有空聚聚！

现在就快大学毕业了，想了很久，我的感言会是什么？
花开花落，花落花开；
相聚别离，别离相聚；
还是那句，有空聚聚！

知足和珍惜。。。

FYP demonstration over.

Woohoo... My FYP demonstration has just over. Emm... to be more exact, I can't call this as a demonstration, cause I didn't really bring my moderator to my lab to show him what have I done for the pass few months. A more suitable term for the session just now should be a discussion session. He asked me mainly about what I did and what is the difficulties of the project.

No matter how he grade me, at least one more task in my list have been done. The next in my list will be the appointment with Chartered. Hopefully, they will give me the same feeling as what my moderator have given to me. All the best to me and may god bless me. ;p;p

我們都老得太快,卻聰明得太遲

把錢省下來，等待退休後再去享受 結果退休後，因為年紀大，身體差，行動不方便，哪裡也去不成。 錢存下來等養老，結果孩子長大了，要出國留學，要創業做生意，要花錢娶老婆，自己的退休金都被拗走了。當自己有足夠的能力善待自己時，就立刻去做， 老年人有時候是無法做中年人或是青少年人可以做的事，年紀和健康就是一大因素。 小孩子從小就告訴他，養你到高中，大學以後就要自立更生， 要留學，創業，娶老婆，自己想辦法，自己要留多一點錢，不要為了小孩子而活。

我們都老得太快卻聰明得太遲，我的學長去年喪妻。這突如其來的事故，實在叫人難以接受，但是死亡的到來不總是如此。學長說他太太最希望他能送鮮花給他，但是他覺得太浪費，總推說等到下次再買，結果卻是在她死後，用鮮花佈置她的靈堂。 這不是太蠢愚了嗎？！

等到 ....... 、等到 ..... ，似乎我們所有的生命，都用在等待。

「等到我大學畢業以後，我就會如何如何」
「等到我買房子以後！」
「等我最小的孩子結婚之後！」
「等我把這筆生意談成之後！」
「等到我死了以後」

人人都很願意犧牲當下，去換取未知的等待；犧牲今生今世的辛苦錢，去購買後世的安逸。 在台灣只要往有山的道路上走一走，就隨處都可看到「農舍」變「精舍」，山坡地變靈塔，無非也是為了等到死後，能圖個保障，不必再受苦。許多人認為必須等到某時或某事完成之後再採取行動。

明天我就開始運動
明天我就會對他好一點
下星期我們就找時間出去走走
退休後，我們就要好好享受一下

然而，生活總是一直變動，環境總是不可預知，在現實生活中，各種突發狀況總是層出不窮。身為一個醫生，我所見過的死人，比一般人要來得多。這些人早上醒來時，原本預期過的是另一個平凡無奇的日子，沒想到一個意料之外的事；交通意外、腦溢血、心臟病發作等等。剎那間生命的巨輪傾覆離軌，突然闖進一片黑暗之中。 那麼我們要如何面對生命呢？我們毋需等到生活完美無瑕，也毋需等到一切都平穩，想做什麼，現在就可以開始做起。 一個人永遠也無法預料未來，所以不要延緩想過的生活，不要吝於表達心中的話，因為生命只在一瞬間。如果你的妻子想要紅玫瑰，現在就買來送她，不要等到下次。真誠、坦率的告訴她：「我愛妳」、「妳太好了！」這樣的愛語永不嫌多 如果說不出口，就寫張紙條壓在餐桌上：「你真棒！」 或是「我的生命因你而豐富。」不要吝於表達，好好把握。

記住！ 給活人送一朵玫瑰，強過給死人送貴重的花圈

每個人的生命都有盡頭，許多人經常在生命即將結束時，才發現自己還有很多事沒有做，有許多話來不及說，這實在是人生最大的遺憾。別讓自己徒留「為時已晚」的空餘恨。

逝者不可追，來者猶未卜，最珍貴、最需要即時掌握的「當下」，往往在這兩者蹉跎間，轉眼錯失。人生短暫飄忽，包得有一首小詩這樣寫： 高天與原地，悠悠人生路； 行行向何方，轉眼即長暮。正是道盡了人生如寄，轉眼即逝的惶恐。有許多事，在你還不懂得珍惜之前已成舊事；有許多人，在你還來不及用心之前已成舊人。遺憾的事一再發生，但過後再追悔早知道如何如何」是沒有用的，「那時候」已經過去，你追念的人也已走過了你的生命。

一句瑞典格言說：「我們老得太快，卻聰明得太遲。」 不管你是否察覺，生命都一直在前進 人生並未售來回票，失去的便永遠不再。將希望寄予「等到方便的時間才享受」 我們不知失去了多少可能的幸福 不要再等待有一天你「可以鬆口氣」，或是「麻煩都過去了」。 生命中大部分的美好事物都是短暫易逝的，享受它們、品嚐它們 ，善待你周圍的每一個人，別把時間浪費在等待所有難題的「完滿結局」上。 找回迷失的生命 死亡也許是免費的 ─ 但是，卻要付出生命的代價。

勸你一句話： 把握當下，莫等待。

室友的喜悦

今天，薇薇签下她人生算是蛮重要的一笔，她找到工作了。真替她高兴。

看她在她的blog里写下几个post的心情，有点羡慕也有点妒嫉。羡慕她找到一份自己满意的工作，妒嫉为什么自己还没有。但是，看了她的心情告白后，让我感染到她的喜悦。我相信我的这一天应该也会很快到来的。继续努力吧。。。

期待着向大家分享喜悦的那一天。

生活的未知数

最近觉得自己的身体不太好，人好像有点热气，要不就头痛肚泻，要不就头晕作呕。（别乱想，不是有喜。）就是觉得自己的健康好像亮黄灯，一个要自己注意平时的生活及饮食的预兆。

可能前几个星期忙于写毕业报告，生活紧张迟睡少运动的不良习惯统统出来了才导致病痛有机可袭。本以为交了报告，这几天好好休息可以补偿回去，原来这题数学我算错了。

刚刚坐巴士回家的途中，突然觉得自己好像一直还在紧张状态中。头一只紧绷着，有时紧绷得让我觉得好像快要爆裂般。紧张的状态让我无法卧床就睡。

问过自己为何报告交了还是如此的紧张。答案是什么，不太清楚。可能就因为太多这些未知数。

不知毕业论文会如何，
不知在大学的最后一次考试会怎样，
不知毕业后的生活会怎么过，
不知毕业后的工作是什么，
不知得到第一份工作会是什么时候，
不知以后长联络的朋友会剩下几个，
不知家人，朋友，生活，事业。。。

一切一切的未知数，让我担心。可能我应该正面的面对它，既然是未知数，又何必为了未知的一切一切影响现在的正常生活呢。

只可惜，在这世界上，讲通常会比做来得容易。

EEE Final Year Students' BIG Day

Today is EEE final year students' BIG BIG day. We need to submit our FYP report to our moderator for grading. All our effort put into the FYP will be graded according to our report, demostration(some might have but not all) and oral presentation.

I have printed out my report at 2pm sth today. It is so fresh and hot. Thanks to Nyok Khiam who helped me to make my graft looks better. 60 pages from cover page till the last page of appendix. I think my report is the least pages report. Hai... what can I do? I really dunno how to add in more things already and a bit lazy somemore. ;p;p

I brought my report to the printing room and wanted to bind it. But, the printing boy told me to collect it an hour later. Oh no... an hour??? ya, it's true. I saw a few stacks of report inside the printing room. Luckily, I still have time. I put my report there for binding and wait at CICS lab. While waiting, I helped Ah Cheong to do his report formatting. Hahaha... He owe me a cup of starbucks coffee. :P:P

An hour later, I went to the printing room to collect my report and straight away chiong to my moderator's room. I passed my report to him and informed him about the change of title. He looked a bit disappointed when I told him that. But, what else can I do? I already changed the title and he already chosed my project. Just pray and hope that he can gao tai gui shou, fang wo yi ma. Hopefully, he wont kill my scores.

Now, the only few things I can do is wait for the demo, study for final exam, prepare for oral presentation and be ready for any job interview. Hope that every tasks I mentioned above can be smooth smooth sharp sharp over.

A 2007 must watch in cinema movie-300

300 poster

Forgive me for spending few hours luxuriously in watching a movie during this stressing period. By the way, this is not the main point of the blog. But please allow me to intro this movie to you.

As mentioned in the title (opps... used to the report writing these few weeks), 300 is really a must watch in cinema movie.

"I have been waiting for a long time to see a good movie and this time has come at last because 300 isn't just a good move it is out breathing, outstanding and everything i can say is little. Firstly I believed that it was just an ordinary Hollywood movie and just like many others It would be good just to pass your time. But I was wrong, because this movie has everything, an excellent story based on the comic 300,fantastic images that travels you in an other world in ancient times, very good cast and a very good music full of emotions." quoted from a website.

I personally like the first wave of the war. The formation of the Spartan is really firm and impressive. (poor english so the adjective not so accurate) With the only 300 warriors, King Leonidas (Gerald Butler) fight with the mens, rhino, elephant and immortal. Cool man.... The scene just before they fight in the shade is really "beautiful".. ;p;p

But, one thing that I learnt from this movie is that the Spartan's shields are really not play play one. No arrows or blades can ever break any of the Spartan's shield. Geng...

P/S: Malaysia 18PL, Singapore M18

Gerald Butler-King Leonidas

Hundreds of men in the pic.

FYP final report submission countdown

Few more days before FYP final report submission date, 26th of March.

Although I should think more positively that I can have a big release after the submission, but i felt a bit scared cause I think my report still not ready for submission yet. However, I am very slack to improve it and I dunno how can I improve it. This should be the main reason why I am so slack now.

Hai.......

Due to my backward report writing, I printed out all the reference papers I cited in my report today in IHub. All the printing cost me about S$6-10 I think. But bo bian, I need to know what have I cited in my report. Can't imagine how my face will look like if my moderator ask me something that I cited but I know nothing. An advice to everyone, don't follow my footstep, do not ever do backward report writing unless you have no other choice. ;p

All the best to all final year student.

无题

今天的我，其实不知道自己要写些什么，就知道想找一个可以泄气的角落。

类似的文章已不是第一次出现与我这个小角落。原因是什么？

我想，就因为我这种什么都不知道的态度。

不知道自己是什么；
不知道自己要什么；
不知道自己想什么；
不知道自己会什么；
不知道自己是不是自己。。。

别担心，是写得悲了一点，庆幸的是我知道自己是没事的。

FYP report first draft submission

Finally, I have submitted my first draft of FYP report to my supervisor.

Although this is not the perfect and final one, but at least the born of the first draft is a big release for me. I know there are still a lot to edit and to do, but at least I can have a better rest for tonight after few weeks of late sleep.

I have written a few reports before, but this FYP report is different. After the submission of the reports I wrote in the past, that's it met the end of the story till my results released. I didn't need to really care about how I wrote them and what will the examiner think about my report. But this doesn't apply to FYP report.

After the first draft submission, I still need to edit it for a better one as final report. I need to make sure the report I submitted can prevent me from being asked by moderator some deep deep questions. A demostration is needed to show the moderator what have I actually done for the whole year. Lastly, there is the oral presentation of the project. The most scariest part of the FYP. Some might think that this part just as easy as drinking water, I do hope so.

Actually, this is still not a big problem for final year. The biggest problem is how I want my life to be after graduation. I don't know, I really don't know...

美貌与智慧

今天在午饭后吹水的时候，讨论了一些话题。其中最争议性的是女性的美貌与智慧。

到底女性的美貌与智慧是正比的(proportional)还是对比的(inversely propotional)?

由于我读的是工程系，男生会比较多，所以一直以来和我吹水较多的会是一群男生。而这群男生围绕着的话题里，除了“多打”(dota)吃喝玩乐以外，就是女生。习惯性的，要求高的他们都会经常踩（俗话，意思相等于贬低）样貌或身材不太好的女生。而今天他们就把成绩好的女生和难看画上等号。

友人甲听说有人交了一分十多页的interim report（算蛮多的了）后就一口咬定她是难看的。友人甲不曾看过她，就凭着友人甲的信念--成绩好的女生一定是难看的，就说她一定是难看的。

很快，听久他们经常踩女生的我听不下去，就单刀匹马，一对三地和三个大男人争论了起来。

成绩好的女生就不可以有美的吗？美丽的女生就一定是成绩差的吗？难道参加选美的小姐们都不可以有成绩是一流的吗？

最搞笑的是，友人甲给了一个列子。他的中学里年年考第一的是个美女，但因结识男友之后乎列了成绩，只能考获第三第四名。第三第四名不算聪明吗？难到他的学校就只有五六名学生吗？

争论维持了长逾半个小时，不论友人如何为自己的论点解释和辩护，就是无法接受他们所谓的论点--成绩好的女生一定是难看的。

只能接受成绩较差的学生多半比较会打扮，只是较会打扮也还不代表一定会打扮得好看。而打扮得好看又不一定就是美。而且，成绩较差的学生多半比较会打扮这个唯一能够达到的共识也不只是女生，男生也一样。

所以，男生们请尊重自己也尊重他人，在给与这类的意见时，请不要性别歧视。

Happy Chinese New Year

Woohoo... I am going back home for CNY in few hours time later.
So happy can go back home.
So excited can meet with family and friends.
But so sad that I declare I lost my hotlink sim card.
So sad that I got sorethroat since last night after eating McD prosperity chicken burger.

Anyway, wish all of you having a fun and enjoyable chinese new year.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR and 恭喜发财!!!!!!

What Colour is Your Brain????

What colour is your brain? Now only I know that different people got different colour of brain. Cool rite?!

Your Brain is Blue

Of all the brain types, yours is the most mellow. You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don't try to think away your troubles. Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they are. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life.

What Color Is Your Brain?

This is mine. What about you?
Enjoy.

Blogging in Lab

Haha... Do you know where am I now? I am still in lab..
The third time (if I m not wrong) I write blog in lab.

But, this time is my fyp mate,kh force me to write one.
We prepared to go back home after a whole day of work. But his thumb drive a bit slow, copy files like snail. Should have started run another set of result now one. But he said, "no need la. write your blog la.".

He is walking around in the lab now. Keeping mumbling "chui zi". This "chui zi" is Cheong's "wife". Kh suspect "chui zi" and a guy got something. He said must tell Cheong. But where is Cheong now? He is going back home (his Pantai Remis house) tonight. How come his "wife" not follow him back home but stay with another guy in lab? This is the question.(in CPK tone) ;p;p

ok la. Kh stand behind me and staring at my screen fiercefully already.

It's time to go back.

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!! Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!!

Happy V Day

Happy V Day!!!!!

Coffee Lover vs Coffee Addict

Few years ago, I seldom drank coffee (except for starbucks or coffee beans).
I am not a super coffee lover nor coffee addict who must at least drink a cup everyday.
To be more exact, I dun really like coffee.

But today, suddenly wanna buy a cup of coffee, put on my table, sip it once a while while editting the matlab code. (mayb i think this is cool ;p)

I sms my fyp mate and hope that he will pass by the caffe express and help me buy a cup of "drug". But, he din reply my sms. :( He is now beside me with his laptop and without coffee. Too bad.....

Am I addicted to coffee? Do I consider as coffee lover?
I also dunno...

真的和假的

前几天和朋友买些东西回来的时候，看见楼上的一盆花很美，朋友说：“美的东西都是假的。”。朋友还加了一句，“我就知道你最真。”。

我承认我是如此，我一直都是把情绪摆在脸上，说话总是不饶人。我是很真地把我自己摆出来，几位较熟的朋友告诉过我，不好这么情绪化，身边会少很多朋友，最终吃亏的是自己。我是知道的。很认真的努力过，好难。。。　

好难对着生气的人嘻皮笑脸，没一回事。
好难对着害怕的人故作镇定。

学习控制情绪和脾气是我进入南大的其中之一目标。我尝试了很久，虽然偶尔脾气和情绪化还是有的，但与中学时期相比，火没那么大了。

就快要毕业了，我的目标达到哪里了，我无法衡量。
只是做人真假的问题又再出现脑海。
为何人就不能真一点吗？假情假意有用吗？

一种米养百种人。
不是每个人都有着同样的心态和处事方式，和自己一样的不代表一定对，不一样的未必就是错。
所以，面对百种人就不能只有一个自己。

那，什么时候我才会学会呢？

今天，经过那盆花时发现那花有些枯萎了，原来那盆花时真的。

"D" word

前几天和几个吹水王在学校食堂B饮茶时学了个生字。

我们一直以为只有洋人的"F" word，原来唐人也有"D" word. 唐人的"D" word 可厉害了，简直多意识多用途。

"D" word = D**
第一用法是：
当你向人问好时，你可以用"D" word.
比如：“D你,　这么久都没有联络我。”

其他用法有待你们研究，此blog真真要向你介绍的是，由几个吹水王新创的用法。
据吹水王，D=帮助的意识。就比如，“看到他人有困难应该要D他。”

以上纯属搞笑，大人与小孩都不好去学。

Theory of Fanjianism

It's already 140am and i still staying awake. Not only me but my housemates as well. All of us are facing our own PC now.

I am so tired but still cannot rest. Hair still a bit wet.

Sometimes I wondered, why do I need to be so tired. No answer.

It is quite sad and depress when one felt tired, but sometimes, I enjoyed the process of the tiredness. Is it so called "Theory of Fanjianism"?

Opps... sorry. I need to tell you what is "Theory of Fanjianism". This theory is something started from my friend in NTU. He is the model of theory. The theory is about human tend to "fan4 jian4". Which means that, even when human know what they are doing is wrong, they will still do it for the sake of some excitement or something else or even nothing.

Example of this theory: emm... can't think of any example now. Maybe I can ask my friend to give examples. He got a lot. ;p;p

上海第二天

去年的今天（080206）是我到上海的第二天。ooppss... 已经进入第三天了。
很想写写什么的来纪念去年的这一天。

想不到要写些什么。:P

在脑海里的，是零下3度的冰冷上海，一个人在706的房间。。。回忆慢慢浮现脑海。。。

咳。。。没什么，就只想为新的blogspot开张。

谢谢收看。